introspection

engineer toh i will become.. but what next?

i have become so careless. i just play(that too only on the PC),eat and sleep. i just don't think about my future.. what am i gonnna do in life? i just enjoy the small , petty things in life like eating, sleeping, partying. i just don't think about the larger goal. actually, i have not yet decided about any larger goal.i know that i have a sharp mind. but that was just His gift to me. i have not made any use of it. i just waste it day after day , passing time, copying assignments, playing the same old games, watching movies. God, please make me realise that time is precious. Please guide me toward my destiny. pls make me realise what i have to do,achieve on this planet. everybody has already got their trainings fixed. i have not even thought about it seriously. i just couldn't take time out of CS,AOE. i have to improve. that has to happen very soon. otherwise, i will go down. and would also take those people who believe on me, down with me. i just can't let that happen. life is precious.

i have all kinds of luxuries with me because my dad is a great man. i have not done anything to deserve that. i just waste his hard earned money on patties,samosas and maggi.my dad wakes up everyday at 5 am. i sleep at that time everyday, after finishing two movies. where is all this taking me?


what should i do? everybody around me is busy. but i just sit idle, watching them work hard, but still feel nothing. no tingling sensation wakes me up from my deep slumber in life.

see i'm going to sleep even nw. btw, i haven't even touched any book for weeks. this is bad. why the hell am i taking my life so lightly? why am i not geting serious about my life?

my mind, please realise that life is precious.