some mumblings...

dear blog
it was a bad bad day for me. when things have to go wrong, they do more than expected. we just can't be prepared for them.

we had a class at 11 am today. i was made to get up at 10 am by MC. he, along with a neighbour, started commenting on me... about my looks, fingers and what not. i was just up from sleep, so i couldn't reply in a proper fashion. so, they got on top of me in every conversation. then, when i came back from bath, they started making my video. i became nervous and wore my baniyaan inside out. a lot of fun was made out of that.

then in the party in the evening, my brain had stopped working. for i went and sat with the most hated group of our class. they are hated as they dont let things happen. they just create loud noises and idiotic, vulgar, repetitive comments. and the worst part- i supported them too. this way, i too became a hated person in my class. many people came up to me and asked me what i was doing today. some told me that i , along with others, had spoiled todays party. the rest could not gather enough courage to come up to me to say this, but i could see these words in their eyes whenever our eyes met. after all, u feel really bad when all the girls come up to u to say bad things to u.. i was devastated...

to add to that, and not realising yet that it was a bad day for me, i invited some of my friends from other departments to the party. they were not ready to dance. i acted like a desperate fool and begged them to dance. then too, they didn't dance. then i asaked them to either dance or leave. so they left. and while they were leaving too, i said some bad things to them, though not very clearly....

i just don't know what has got into me. this is not what i am. its a bad day's night. i'll sleep early to end this day. Dear God, pls give me the power to overcome this and return to my earlier form.

gn